What if...?

He comes home from work and notices a hot plate on the dinner table. She welcomes him home from work, and asks him to join her for dinner. He says he ate already and he isn't hungry.

At night before they fall into a deep sleep, she asks how his day was. He says he's tired and they'll talk tomorrow morning.

In the morning, breakfast is prepared and she asks him to join her. He grabs a piece of toast and runs out the door claiming he's late.

She drives to his job holding a card and dinner in her hands. She says he seemed to be stressful lately, maybe this will lift his spirits up. He says he doesn't know why she wasted her time. It was a waste of money and maybe she should try returning the food & card.

Honestly, if I was the woman, I wouldn't cater to him for this long. But what if i told you all of these scenario's were vice versa. What if it was the woman who was treating her man like this. Like many, you would find this hard to believe. Well, believe it.

Many women could only wish about having a man cater to her. Even its just a card saying "I'm thinking of you". For the women who decide to treat their man like this, don't let this slap you in the face; YOU DON'T MISS A GOOD THING TIL IT'S GONE...

Who makes the rules?!

How many times have you heard "You know what they say, if you sleep with a guy on the first date, he'll think you're easy..."? Who are "They"?!
They said never kiss and tell-- let me know who They are because I will tell everyone except They.

When we date people, we put a thick layer of foundation over ourselves to conceal our true being. We don't want the new person running off because a dark spot made its way to the light, so we allow our representative to take charge for a few months and build our real being up, because we don't want to let They down.

You know what I say? To hell with the representatives!!! We should fire them and become entrepenuers. If you're dating someone and you want them to become your stability, be yourself. Whatever happens in the dark will come to light. Why hide that blemish when that is what makes you, you? I learned, if you're upfront and honest from the begining, you can only walk an easy road from here on out. We get hurt when we find out we've been lied to, so let's not be the one who's doing the hurting. Look, if someone won't accept you for who you are and what you're about, just say TO HELL WITH YOU!

We do not need to follow a book of "Do's and Dont's" in order to snatch & maintain a stable relationship. In this world, I believe, there is someone for everyone. Be who you are and wait for yours. Relationships isn't a game and even though relationships are much more complicated now than how they were in the 1800's, who are They to tell us how to run things?
*in a Cartman (character from South Park) tone*
WHATEVA! I DO WHAT I WANT!!!
THEY CAN GO TO HELL

Moral of this story:
Be yourself and don't follow the "society" way of getting/keeping a man.

Long Distance

If you leave
And go your way
There's a possibility
I may not wait.
How can our love
Stretch states apart?
When we're blocks apart
It strains my heart.
You rest in my mind
Day and night
As you will
When you're on your flight.
A void takes place
Where memories of you lay.
And all I have
Is your picture in a frame.
As much as it hurts
To end us now,
My heart will deal
With this pain somehow.
When the sun says hello
We'll be saying good bye.
And when the sun says bye
I break down and cry.
I can't live my world
Being without you.
Wherever you go,
I need to go, too.
Because I know
this love is real,
I will cross
any ocean or sea.
For you there's
Nothing I won't do.
In the end it's
Me and you.

BROKEN

You were the best
You could be, for me.
Hand in hand we
Walked past reality.
I boasted about
The love we shared,
I rejected the folks
Who showed they cared.
How can my fairytale
Come to an end?
How will my heart
be able to mend?
I'm suprised to see
You've left me broken
I don't think I will want
To love again.
I want to scream
I want to yell
I want to send him
Straight to hell.
He made me soar
He made me cry
He made me wish
That I would die.
I loved him so
He let me know,
Our love was not
The way to go.
I took the knife
Out of my back
And told him I
Won't take him back.
He felt my blood
He taste my tears
He took my smile
And stole my years.
I gave him love
I showed him light
He showed me hate
And gave me fright.
He left me broken
Yet here I stand,
See, now I know
I will love again.

TIS THE SEASON

For those of you who wonder why things are suddenly going wrong in your relationship, that's because summer is rapidly catching up to us. I mean, sure, you'll stay together fighting during spring (that's when he/she will find your replacement) then call a "quit" the begining of summer. If you believe your love can move mountains, you have nothing to worry about... well let's just hope your significant other feels the same way.

Let's say a couple makes it official around June. During the summer you'll go to barbeques together, picnics, dinners, and even a fimily reunion--he wants to show off his prize. Months go by and now we're in a new season... November perhaps. This is when you'll probably have your first real argument. It's only been six moths into the relationship, but you feel like its been a year. Months and months go by and another season has come and gone. SPRING is here! Things haven't been going well and you've probably broken up once or twice already. You question where exactly this relationship is going.

You will, eventually, get into this "do or die" argument that only has two questions at the end. Do you want to make this relationship work, or are you willing to let it die? He's probably thinking whatever you decide will also be his final decision--BUT he will start looking for a back up (replacement).

So... you're working towards making it better and he's not meeting you halfway. That's because he is innfatuated with the replacements representative.
--Representative: (rêp-re-zent-u-tïv) noun; the person you pretend to be the first few months in a relationship.

You'll finally get tired of him and concentrate on yourself. Kudos to you! Too bad you'll just find yourself falling into the arms of a rebound.

The toughest task is trying to stay away from that cycle. It's a hard job, but many have accomplished it. Knowing what you need in a man and knowing what you're worth is the first steps in breaking that cycle of seasonal catastrophic relationships. I would say enjoy the ride, but hopping on that ride too fast is what gets you into these positions.

Word of advice-- you must be true to yourself before you can be true to somebody else.

TO GO OR NOT TO GO

Have you ever been to a party and a fight broke out and the party was done? *sighs* Great! There goes a waste of admission fee! What if it was your close friend was attacked by someone in the club and the party continued???

Last night I decided to go out to celebrate a friends birthday. Although this was a regular spot for me, I had an weird feeling about this. It was around 10pm when I started to get dressed. My best friend picked me up at my house at 11:30pm and we arrived at the club at 11:50. We patiently waited for the other girls to arrive by sipping on the goose and tweeting by twidroid. After an hour of waiting we found ourselves on the dance floor two stepping to kompa. We got wrapped up in the music and finally noticed the rest of our girls entering the club.

Now let me set the mood in your mind. Upon entering the club, you get searched by security, pay your admission, then go through a door. That door will lead you to the mingling area. You'll see tables & chairs, and the bar in the center. There's a doorway [without a door] that leads to the dance floor. While you're on the dance floor and you look straight ahead to the back of the club, there is a stage that fits 15 people uncomfortably. *that is also where the dj is set up*

Now all six of us are together. My friend was on stage and the rest of us were on the dance floor dancing near the stage. At this point the dj asks everyone to clear the area because the stage is too packed. Some got off and a few stayed on. My friend stayed on. In the blink of an eye we notice her being pushed off of the stage by a girl and landing on her feet.
We were shocked and made sure she fine. My friend tried to calm herself down, but it didn't work. She saw her opening! She pushed this random woman out of the way and took a swung at the girl who pushed her. As a 22 year old woman, I would react in the same way, but being that it wasn't me in the situation all I could do is stay calm and keep her under control. She got escorted out of the club and we followed behind her... well all except one. After seven minutes of waiting outside for this chick and look at my phone to see what time it was. Its 3am and the party ends at 4am. *rolling my eyes* I went back inside as my best friend brought the car around. Guess what I saw!!! How about this chick is grinding up on this dude while her friend is outside angry about this fight. I confronted her. I asked her if she's gonna stay at the party and she said yes. She wasn't ready to leave. As appalled as I was, I walked away and left the scene. As we're loading ourselves in the sedan, we noticed another "friend" is left behind. We ask her why aren't you getting in, she says she's going to stay in the club with the other chick. So.... we left them.

For some reason, those two girls staying behind at the club isn't sitting well with me. How do you call someone your sister and you don't stand behind them through thin? It turns out the main reason all of us went out last night is because, the two girls who stayed behind, are the ones who invited us. I want to know your honest opinion on this one... WOULD YOU STAY OR WOULD YOU GO?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY... I guess

Hmmm... How should I begin? Ok, got it!

How would you feel if it was your birthday, you were having a fiesta and your man/woman was a "no show"? It's one of those things that have you sitting there asking "Why wouldn't I want to spend this special day with him/her?" This scenario is one that caught me off guard....

A couple, who recently became a couple, had a birthday coming up. It was her birthday. Her friends decided to throw her a birthday party and she told her man about it. He felt a little skeptical on wether or not he should buy her a gift, but he was sure he would attend the event.

As the birthday got closer, he found the right gift for her [being that they were in the begining of their relationship] and couldn't wait to give it to her! Three days prior to the birthday party, he recieves a call from his ex
[love] girlfriend. *raises eyebrow* Yes, that's right! They make plans to have lunch together on the DAY OF THE BIRTHDAY PARTY. Well, maybe I'm being a little dramatic, but the fact remains-he "double booked". Oooo the plot
thickens!

The function was scheduled for 7:30PM and her meeting with the ex was scheduled for 3:00PM. Some would feel that's enough time, but for someone who has no self control, it's a bad idea. As the clock struck 2:30pm, he
called his woman just to make sure her day was going well and to ensure their plans were going to go well that evening. Unfortunately, her phone wasn't working at that moment. He met up with his ex as scheduled and they
hung out. I guess whatever they were doing must've been that good, because before he knew it the clock read 8pm.

His woman was blowing up his phone! He was so caught up with his ex, he didn't answer. Maybe he was afraid to answer. He figured since she was probably already upset, he might as well enjoy the rest of his evening instead of hearing her nag all night. He departed from his ex around 11pm.

He called his woman once he got home and tried to apologize, and the only thing she asked was WHERE WERE YOU? He didn't want to lie, but at the same time, he didn't want to tell her the truth either... He did what any man would do-- I was with a friend. In her mind he done said it all. She hung up at once and he hasn't heard from her since.

Quick Questions!

1- Do you think she overreacted in this situation? If so, please explain.

2- How would you feel if your man/girl was a no show on your birthday?

3- Would you break up or stay together? Please elaborate.

Eyes Outside

At times when I feel blue
I gaze outside, hoping for something new.
I'm not looking at cars
Or people walking by.
I'm searching for hope
To let me get by.
I stare at the birds
Extending wings to fly
And the trees that change
As we leave each season behind.
The stability while writing
When I'm staring outside,
Is one that I find
Soothes my mind.
I spend hours
With my eyes to the sky
There are times I sit
By the window and cry.
Perhaps there's an answer
I'm searching for
But there's something
About it, that I adore.

Focus

With my head down and hand pressed against the other, I kneeled down and asked for some advise. Advise on this tornado I refer to as a relationship. Sometimes we [as women] forget God created us with a special gift. We know everything we want to know, or have access to the solution.
It is our women's intuition. That's a gift no one can ever take from us. We choose to endulge in the coniving words that are fed to us because that is what our taste buds desire. We aren't ready.
YOU'RE not capable of placing your heart in a safe and listening to what your mind has to offer. You do not trust yourself to make the RIGHT decision.
We may have ALL the proper evidence in front of us, and we just can't put it together. The worst thing that can happen is to realize the time invested is one you could've avoided all ALONG! I can help, but I cannot. Feel free and ask yourself questions, don't be scared to answer yourself. Go through all measures to get the truth; just know you will get hurt in the process.

Open your eyes! Nooo, a little wider...there you go...
Now read! PAY ATTENTION!

Crawling in my skin

My God!
The lies
The hurt
The deceit.
I ran
I reached
To see
You're not for me!
I'm good
I'm clean
I know
I don't need you!
I'm hurt
I'm scared
I heard
The final truth!
I'm drained
I'm weak
Can't speak
I should be gone.
But fear
Lives here
I think
I might be wrong.
NO!!!!
I'm right
I see
Its true
What they all say
He fell
He crawled
The floor
Is where he lays.

THE FIRST TIME…

The winds gust through her hair, as the flakes landed on her lashes. Her eyes were squinted as incontrollable tears trickled down her face. Her cracked lips were too numb to move. Heat released from her mouth as a steamship in the night. Her palms were moist due to the beating drum in her chest. Her legs took turn extending themselves down fifteen steps, while her arms swung back and forth. She came to a rest. Her fingers, soft and subtle, eased down into her purse and pulled out a gold and black item. She proceeded by taking a few steps and making contact with this hard object. It was cold against her hands. As fast as her feet would allow her, she moved away without looking back.
She entered this hot and semi-isolated place where she would experience the ride of her life. As the doors closed behind her, she dropped her bag to the floor and placed her bottom against this cold surface. She made herself comfortable; she began to remove her hat and scarf. Her arms rubbed against his firm and brawny arms. The heat was unbearable. She unzipped her coat as she waited for her relief. She made contact with his eyes, which was as dark as coffee, staring into her eyes, which was as rich as chestnuts. He stood up and traveled deeper. She closed her eyes as a relaxation came over her. She leaned her head back and enjoyed the ride. Her body jerked back and forth as this ride began to take a toll on her. She moved her fingers across her forehead to remove the strands of hair that lay across her face. She turned her head to the left to view what time the clock had displayed. She understood this exhilarating moment would soon come to an end.
She quickly wrapped her fingers onto the metal pole just so she wouldn’t lose her balance. She began to race the clock. The second hand ticked while she planted her feet on the dirty ground. It then tocked when she realized she didn’t protect herself from the germs. She rapidly put her hat and gloves back on and zipped up her coat, as she sped to the door. She ran with no regrets. In her mind, as she made her way up the steps, she knew she enjoyed what she’d just experience. In a couple of hours, she’d be back for more. This was so soothing, so meditating, so refreshing…this was what she needed to start her day.
The wind slapped her across the face when she stepped outside. She had merely five minutes to make it to her destination. She took out her identification card and showed it to the authorities. She then made her way to the elevator and firmly pressed the number three. She was only two minutes tardy for her English class. The professor asked her what was her reason for being late. She said this was the first time she’d taken the subway, and the ride was longer than she expected.

Abuse

My life's a mess
Cuts and bruises everywhere.
No one understands
The pain and despair.
My eyes on fire
Leaking with raging heat
My mind holds nothing
Besides memories of deceit.
With nowhere to go
And no one to turn to
I hurt myself by day
Til I turn midnight sky of blue.
Knife wounds in my back
Becomes harder to take out.
This dreadful game of love
Is one I know nothing about.
It continues to bruise me
Leaving my heart in shattered pieces
When I pick it up
Again it breaks for many reasons.
It fights for a chance
To survive through this pain
But its too much to endure-
Before it pours it rains.

Insecurity & Intimidation

I don't believe in insecurities
I believe in intimidation.
I believe someone like me
Can make you question your creation.
You know you aren't better
And he agrees with your theory
If I was in your shoes
I too would be weiry.
Insecurity is such
an ugly thing.
Intimidation is all I can ever bring.
Me myself isn't what you'd call arrogant.
I take pride in myself,
I call it confident.
I don't pretty myself
To keep a dude
I'm always on point
And never a prude.
I know we're both fine
But sweety let's be real,
Its my intimidation
That brings you the insecurity you feel.

Hmmm.... I wonder where you are...

Baby, I wanna see you--
For lunch perhaps.
Where are you love?
I'm about to snap.
I'll shoot you a text...
And yet still no reply,
I'll stop by your job
Too bad you're not inside.
I'm getting worried love,
I wonder where you are.
We meet everyday
And today we're apart???
I'm starting to think
Of all the places you were
On the other hand,
Maybe you're with her.
I hope its not in our bed
That's our sanctuary
The place I rest my head.
*sighs*
I already know your kind
The unfaithful type
But I don't really care
We share a child.
We could make it work
For the sake of our baby
I'll deal with your shit
So we can be a family.
*shaking my head*
One day I'll find the one
But my trust will be broken.
And then I'll look back,
Think of these words once spoken,
I love you baby
We'll stay together, forever--
Only to realize
Forever turns to never.
All these thoughts
Boggle my mind very much.
All cause you didn't answer your phone for lunch.
Regardless of which,
I know you're cheating,
But I'll still stay with you
Because my life has no meaning.
I know I'm where you're at
But its with her you want to be.
But these are the sacrifices
For the sake of a family.
Right?
Wrong!

I ADORE YOU

The vitality that I feel for you
is hotter than h*ll.
A lenient smile from you
makes a bad day go swell.
One look in your eyes
makes me know that I'm blessed
to have someone like you,
who's better than the rest.
The love that I have for you
cannot be explained,
but for as long as I can
it will be proclaimed.
I am in love with you
and that's what I want you to know
I will always be with you
no matter how far you go.
I want love as a gift,
from you to me,
then look in my eyes
and see
how much I adore thee.

THIS ONE'S FOR YOU

A long journey I've past
and met none like you.
This is why I'm writing this
especially for you.

I hold you close to my heart
and won't let anything tear us apart.
You have become more than a friend to me
and that's how I know It's together we'll be.

Through all the pain you've dealt with
and all the hurt I've been through,
I know It's to eachother
we can always run to.

The sound of your voice
is harmonic to my ears.
It's crazy we've *known* eachother
for just a year.

The way you look at me
brings chills up my spine.
and the way you give it to me,
lets me know that thing is mine.

I confide in you
like I've done no other.
I can spend eternity with you
and never feel smothered.

Life with you
became so pleasing;
You make it your business
to do things I find appeasing.

I feel bubbly when
you're in my presence.
Our admiration for eachother
to the world is sensless.

Positive thoughts cross my mind
when I think of you.
That's why I take time
to write this to you.

The song "realize"
is dedicated to you.
My heart is on a platter
given to you.
To you only my heart
will stay true.
That's why you know
This one's for you.

THE SHIRT'S OFF MY BACK

I stood by you
through thick and thin.
I've shaded you from harm
and blocked you from sin.
I would take your dirt
and put it on me,
just to make sure
in the gates of heaven you'll be.
I never held my tongue
when you craved the truth.
I haven't let you go
when on the edge of the roof.
If you were to jump off
I would break your fall.
Cause I'd rather die
then see you cry at all.
It breaks my heart
when you are mad
I'm in rage
when you are sad.
The only time I'm happy
is when you're glad,
yet,
the only time you're glad
is when I'm sad.
The way I do them,
they won't do me the same.
I know the reason I get hurt.
I know I'm to blame.
I will now love myself
until I'm unable to tame.
I now put me first
and it gets no higher.
In order to get to me
you must travel through the wires.
I'm one of my own
and I live for myself.
If you don't like it,
step to the left.

FREE YOURSELF

Let the winds
whisk you away.
Let your body loose
and go all the way.
Let your hair down
and make mistakes.
Don't bite your tongue
for things you have to say.
Free yourself
and speak your mind.
Have no regrets
'til the end of time.
Hold no punches--
Forgive and forget.
Don't apologize
for things that you meant.
Take the time
to say I love you...
Tell no lies,
and to yourself stay true.
Free yourself
and just live life.
Sit back,relax
and enjoy the ride.

IN A CHILDS EYE

In a childs eye
My dream is my life
The limit is the sky
And I'm most high.
I'm all i can be
My body is free
Noone to stop me
The storms beneath me.

L.O.V.E

Its easy to write
yet hard to find
Not visible by sight
but always wander the mind.
It fills you up
without eating a thing.
It always suprises
no matter what it brings.
Everyone wants it
but its priceless,
Everyone rushes it
but its timeless.
It compromises
and go ou of its way.
It doesnt listen
to what others say.
Its as sweet as the maple
that comes from the trees,
It's like a drug that
makes you weak in the knees.
It keeps no records
of eachothers wrong actions.
And it provides reciporocal satisfaction.
It's a spiritual lift
that we call love
given to us as a gift
from the Lord above.

Farewell Forever

It's a shame
It had to end so soon
Your life shined
As bright as a full moon.
Who knew this
Was part of your destiny
You went away
Without saying goodbye to me.
How do you mourn
Over the one you've lost?
How do you grieve
Not knowing the cause?
In this case,
Goodbye is everlasting
For the rest of my life
From your face I'll be fasting.
My throat is parched
Not knowing how much I'd miss you
My heart is full of memories
I shared with you.
When the time comes
For our souls to unite
We'll be together
And once again ignite.

Dear Love:

I THOUGHT OF YOU TODAY
ANDI GOT THE STRENGTH TO PRAY.
I THOUGHT OF WORDS TO SAY
AND FELT I SHOULDN'T BE AFRAID.
I DIDN'T THINK YOU'D LAST FOR LONG
AND I THOUGHT BY NOW, YOU WOULD'VE BEEN GONE.
YOUR VOICE IS LIKE A SOULFUL SONG
THROUGH THE MIDST OF IT ALL
YOU COULD DO NO WRONG.
HOW CAN YOU FIT MY "PICTURE PERFECT" IMAGE
AND STAY BEYOND POSITIVE & NEVER FINISH?
I REALIZED PATIENCE IS THE KEY
ANDTHE KEY IS IN ME.
YOUR HEART WAS LOCKED
AND IT WAS OPENED BY ME.
"I LOVE YOU"
ISN'T STRONG ENOUGH TO TELL YOU
"I MISS YOU"
ISN'T HARD ENOUGH TO SHOW YOU
HUGS
AREN'T LONG ENOUGH TO HOLD YOU
KISSES
AREN'T SWEET ENOUGH TO TASTE YOU
--SOoOoOo...
I MADE A JOURNEY TO "FIND" YOU.
AND FOLLOWED THE PATH OF COMPROMISE
TO UNDERSTAND YOU.
LITTLE DID I KNOW,
AFTER THESE WAVES I SAILED
THAT I WOULD FIND OUT THAT YOU'RE MY FAIRYTALE.

Forgive Us

Let the rain pour in
and wash my soul,
whisk me away,
and take me whole.
If I don't die at night
I start to praise his name.
Take the dirt off ofmy fingertips;
wipe it clean off of my lips
If his lights go off
I know I'll be afraid.
All of my wounds have a story to tell
Can't see by sight
nor hear, nor smell
At the end of the day
I know I'd be replaced.
When will he step in
and hold my hand?
To take me from the wrath of man.
Give me strength
to survive another day.
Forgive us Lord
For we all have sinned.